First of all, I have nothing negative to say about anything that has to do with OM&M, besides what I’m writing about here in this blog. I don’t care that he doesn’t know a lot of the right words in the songs while performing, or sings half of my parts I made up wrong, or adds on to the melodies/lyrics, or who is better, who is worse, who was in what bands, who can scream louder, or longer, this or that. Blah Blah Blah, none of this phases or matters to me. It shouldn’t matter to anyone else either. I’d like to surround myself and my life with positive things, and things that involve the future! :)
I am no longer in, or a part of the band. Besides some photos, and the two music videos that were released. HE is their leader, singer, frontman, etc. I have nothing to do with them. This is not a hateful blog at all. We are adults. They are enjoying being on Warped Tour with friends and enjoying being in a successful, respectable, and fun band I’m sure! While I am enjoying spending time with my wife, pets, family, friends, getting my health back and better than ever, and also working on new stuff! I’m happy. Happier than I have been in over 4 or 5 years! It’s amazing how everything works out!
MY point of this blog is just that I have a simple, kind, request. I typed all that stuff first just because it was something I wanted to get out in the open. I feel like it was needed and I’m sick of hearing about this/that, or drama. What brought me to this was I watched a couple videos of the band from Warped Tour and after seeing them all, I am nicely asking [[[When you read this OM&M]]]…. is that on the song “Second & Sebring” you learn all the words, and please scream them correctly. That’s all. That’s it. Simple as store bought pie.
The songs screaming parts, were written by me, and FOR my mother, who passed away when I was 17 years of age. It is titled “Second & Sebring” because I lived in Sebring Court, on the corner of Second Street, in LeHigh Acres Florida, when this happened to me. My mother was the most important person in my life, and taught me more than anyone will ever know. She was an angel on earth. I love and miss her dearly. I wrote the song for her, and would like, out of respect, for the band to take the time and effort to perform the vocals correctly.
Some of you might roll your eyes at this, and say “Wow, really?!” You can butcher, change, cuss in, re-write, destroy, whatever any other song or set of lyrics that I created when I was in this band, but not this one. Not THIS song. I could care less what they do with any other song. I no longer have any say about anything. It’s their band.
If you take this to heart, then thanks, and I wish you all a safe and fun summer on the Warped Tour. That goes for all the fans too! Stay hydrated, and bring sunscreen kids! We, (the original OM&M with me as vocalist) worked our butts off writing, recording, and working to get to where we were, and they are now. After all we made happen, all we gave up, all we went through, AND all the fun we had, I’m proud that those songs are being played on something as awesome as Warped all Summer long. But most importantly, I care that this ONE song is being played every day for my momma to hear. I also care that it be preformed how it was intended to be. I’m sure they all as a band, can have enough respect for my mother to do so.
Columbus Ohio proud, vocalist from the band Capitol Tragedy, my hero, and one of the top reasons why I wanted to continue to be a “screamer” in the first place. He was my vocal idol and I hope that he knows how thankful I am of him, and what he did. An old friend of mine Tom Gutches, knew how much I looked up to him back in the day, and said once, “you try to be like Kent, accomplish it, and you’ll do big things.” Well here I am.
I’m proud to say I got to meet this man, and proud to say I watched him preform. I still have the message saved from when his wonderful lady wrote me a myspace message about a year ago congratulating me on things, she said “Kent would have been stoked for you.” I wish the best for his family and hope he is up in the sky saying “we are Capitol Tragedy, from the United States of America”
God bless you man and your family/friends you left behind. So much respect and love. You’ll never know just how much you influenced my life and career <3
Thanks for the continuous support everyone! Make sure you hit me up on Twitter ( @austincarlile ) and let me know if you follow me on here! Also, I’ve written back to letters already, but I’ll be sending out more in reply soon! <3
but you can’t change that. what you can change however, is how you handle it. how you cope. how you let it affect you. how you make it through.
what you can do, is smile, hold your head up, and pull through. there will always be a yesterday, and it will always be a learning experience. it will always be gone. done. over. something in your past, or a stepping stone, and there will always be a tomorrow. look forward to that. look forward to the opportunity, the blessings, the chance, the gift. and always remember, you’ll be okay, everything will be okay, most days are amazing. they are each gifts. and most importantly remember, sometimes life sucks.
Him: I’m married to my best friend. To the love of my life. I’m married to the only woman I want. The only woman that matters. I’m married to the most precious thing in my life… Wow…
Me: Oh goodness
Me: I almost cried :D
Him: I already knew it… But it just hit me again like a ton of bricks. I am absolutely in love with Grettalynn Carlile and no one else.
Him: Thanks, God :)
Him: Hehe just thought I’d share. And promise you that I will always love you. Always support you. Always cry with you. Always provide for you. Always appreciate you. Always respect you. Always care for you. Always be selfless for you. Always be whatever you need from me. I am here. I will never abandon you. <3
Him: Me and you against the world.
She posted this on her Tumblr. I tried to repost but it wouldn’t let me correctly.
The “HIM” is ME, and the “ME” is my wonderful wife. I love her more than anything I have ever loved before. I couldn’t be happier with her, and with how my life is now. All roads I was on before just led me right to her. And I’m more than glad, appreciative, and thankful that they did. Amazing.
FAN: “Wouldn’t it be funny if Austin died from his heart surgery after all the things you said about him? LOL guilt for life”
EX BAND MATE: ”He’s not getting heart surgery. That was a lie too.”
FAN: “blanklove.tumblr.com You think this is a lie? I’m getting confused now after you said that. Besides, on there is proof of Austin’s treatment.”
EX BAND MATE: “It’s pictures of a treadmill and heart monitor. WAAAAHHHHH. Our TM had a heart monitor like that. They give it to you when the doctors cant find anything on your EKG to tell them your heart is screwed. It’s just a monitor to detect “phantom” symptoms. You can get it if you complain of chest pain. I could go get one at home if I complain enough about having chest pain.”
Didn’t post the actual screen shot of these with the ex band members face. I’m not 13 and don’t need any drama. Ha, just thought finding this was amusing. Cheers.
“I just wanted to tell you that I love you more than life itself, and that I think you’re the most beautiful person in the world.”—And I will always feel this very way. Just how you will always have me.
Here are just a couple with small definitions of what is going on. Enjoy :)
^^^ My actual heart right when they cut me open down the middle of my sternum/breast bone. The two medal things held my chest and ribs back.
^The part of fake valve being sewn onto my aortic root after they cut the old part out. I think it looks like something from Star Wars.
^And again. Notice no blood? They had me on a machine that made none of the blood from my body reach my heart. My heart was actually completely stopped from beating for an hour and a half.
^Success! That is the fake valve in place of the old one they cut out. That little thing is what will be keeping me alive.
^Here I am right after surgery in the ICU. I dont remember anything from when I got out around 4, until about 2am. That breathing tube they had in me felt terrible though. I DO remember getting that gnarly thing taken out.
^Here I am the morning after, still in the ICU. They removed the breathing tube, but that was it. Still had to keep all my main artery wrist iv’s, stickers, gauze, patches, catheter (tube that went in my penis, into my bladder) neck iv’s, and wires.
^Here i am after about 4 days. The big white patch?! Holding in my pace maker (wires that went in my chest, see the two red things? And wrapped around my heart, to help it beat normal) And also my chest tube (a tube about the size of a dime, and around two feet long, placed inside my chest cavity, used to drain excess blood and other nasty stuff.)
On about the fifth day they took all of that out, and it was THE worst thing I think I have ever felt, pulling out the wires from my chest? Haha it was not pleasant. Specially the chest tube, when it came out, so did tons of blood and brain like stuff, it was nasty, and the tube felt like it just kept coming. But the tube they pulled from my “you know what” was worse. LOL my wife was standing outside when they did it and she said she could hear me go, “ohhh ahhhhh” haha, it was quite the experience.
^Here I am the day I got home. The opening starts at the top of the anchor, and goes all the way down to where you feel your breastplate end, and stomach begin. It looks gnarlier everyday.
Now I just have to sit, walk for 45 minutes a day, keep doing my breathing exercises on my machine, and get back to normal. My chest bone won’t be okay until about 8-10 weeks from now. I’m on literally 9 different medications a day. Some for pain, some for my heart, some for my brain, some for swelling, etc. My wife keeps me in line with taking them even though they make me feel terrible. Now its just a waiting game.
Wanted to say thanks to everyone who has been wishing me so many “get wells” and “good lucks”, you all are the best. Reading your letters everyday makes me so happy and appreciative to have amazing friends and fans like you. Keep them coming! I will continue to write back soon, the past 2 days home I’ve barely been able to move. But I’m being taken care of, my wife is a great nurse, she should take it up as a living, and God has been healing me more and more on a daily basis it seems. Keep being rad, and stay tuned for more updates from me! I love you all! Seriously, through out everything the support has helped me pull through more than you know. These are rough times but you all make it so much better <333
Hey everyone! I’m alive, and doing alright, besides my lower lungs being collapsed and running a fever, that won’t go away, of 102-103. Sucks. Thank God my wife has been here taking such good care of and supporting me.
I’ll be posting an actual update update soon. Being on the computer is not very flattering to my body right now haha. Thanks for all the love and support! From everyoneeee! So many tweets, and texts from my friends make me so so happy <3
Much love to you all. And keep the letters coming! I love reading them, and have already writter back to a bunch. When I get home and start recovering I’ll be sending out more!
Headed to my final pre-op and to meet everyone else thats going to be working on me. After we do that. My wife, dad, and myself, we are meeting up with my half sister, and my uncle Terry! So we can all spend the day together. Then it’s off to the hotel by the hospital to sleep, wake up at 5am, and do this thing.
I get a text from my wife that says “You are my angel. I can’t describe you any other way. I adore and am in love with you.” It made my morning, and am sure it will make my day. I wish I could have fast forwarded my entire life up until being how I am with her. My life, in my eyes, didn’t even begin until then anyways. What a waste all those years, people, memories, and, moments were. But they all lead me to her. Everything happens for a reason, and I’m glad to call her just that, my Everything. <3
"In a world were no one means anything to anyone, remember that you mean everything to someone. This is a reason to smile, a reason to shine."
“Too many things have happened in my short lifetime for me to waste time thinking of, obsessing over, or talking about anyone except those who i adore that are locked inside my little bubble of consistency. i live in my own world, and no one else really comes in or goes out unless i say so - its nice. if you think i dislike like you, you’ve thought wrong; odds are, i probably dont even know your first name. talk is cheap. assumptions are cheaper. and i cannot name one person that i’ve cared enough to even bother disliking since reaching such a happy oasis in my life. use your eyes, not your ears. remember kids, what you’ve heard is probably far more interesting than the truth. lifes too short. take a joke. make one. laugh your ass off. live a little.”—